The past few days have been pretty uneventful. I have felt almost normal. It is actually rather odd. Sometimes I feel like I should be doing nothing but lying in bed crying but I actually feel okay. There are still tears and sadness but not the mind numbing sadness that was there. I still ache for what has been taken from us but I am actually feeling a tad hopeful. I have been doing A LOT of searching online about Trisomy 13 and it isn't all hopeless. Yes there are many children who do not make it more than a few hours but there are also quite a few that are living into their teens and beyond. As much as I do not want to get my hopes up too much it still brings me a little peace that she could make it.
I have also been feeling more little pops from my Bean. They always make me smile. It is like my Quinn-Bean is in there just letting me know that she is still okay. I really thought that carrying to term would be the hardest thing I would ever do and I am sure I will have my days that it will be but there are also times where it feels like a normal pregnancy. I still have a precious little baby inside my tummy and that is amazing! No matter the out come I will cherish her life forever, no longer how long or short. She has changed my life in so many ways.