A week ago today....

A week ago today I was still hopeful.  I had faith.  I was still looking forward to all of the wonderful things that were ahead for my little family that was soon going to be complete.  Now I sit here and wonder how in the hell this is happening to us.  Seven days I have lived this hell and I still don't believe it.  I pray more than anything that I could just wake up from this nightmare and have it all back but that just isn't going to happen.  I am stuck here in this terrible terrible place and the only thing I can do is muddle my way through and try to find a way to live with it.